It's hard because when I have 'down' time it, it gives me the just the time I need to start doubting my work, comparing my work, having negative convos in my head (yes, with myself!) ;), thinking I will never get another shoot, yada yada yada! Ugh. I don't know why that is what occurs, but yep, it does! It may be because it's such a HIGHLY saturated field and there is competition EVERYWHERE!!!
I know I have to stop it so I am trying to make a real effort at being more positive and confident in my work but it's a definite struggle. I have never been the type of girl who just exudes confidence and self promotion. There is a HUGE part of me that would adore becoming friends with a photographer out here. I have built many relationships with absolutely phenomenal photographers all over the world and I treasure each of them. I know I can bounce ideas off of them, bug them with questions, get info on equipment, business etc. I guess I fear that it's all. a. cut. throat. competitive. market out here and that makes me sad but I suppose that is just reality and we all know REALITY BITES!!! ;)
The real deal is that each and every photographer has something different that they bring to the table. A different style, a different photographic vision, different creative minds etc. and no one photographer is better than another. Boy, being a grown up, is rough! (This is like being on the playground when you're little and trying to fit in, except everyone is BIGGER, OLDER, LOUDER and MORE INTENSE)
Do any other photogs out there have these crazy zany feelings or am I the only weirdo???!!!!
Onto happy things...I scored an adorable vintage drop leaf table that I am using as my new photography desk. I was big time. needing. my. own. space for all of my work stuff so slowly I am creating my little area and completely LOVING it!!! I still have a lot more that I want to add to my space like some canvas prints of some of my work, but for now it works perfectly. Another happy for the week is I did book another shoot for next week that I am pretty excited about! So that means I need to get my butt editing and stop having a pity party for myself! Thanks for listening to the rambling! Have an amazing rest of the week!!! xo
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| My new favorite pic of me and my little 'mini me!' |
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| Sparklers from our vacation this summer! |
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Well, you already know how I feel about all of it. I have to tell you though, in case I haven't already, that "mentoring" you has been such a joy and has really, truly brought back the love of photography for me. I have enjoyed the thought provoking questions, the insight and your encouragement. Just remember never to compare yourself to someone else's highlight reel. (I think it was Karen Russell who explained that best). You are you and you are great! You don't need another session booked, or a litany of compliments to know that. You wouldn't be doing this if you weren't already great at it. Keep chugging, enjoy the down time and practice, practice, practice! <3
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