Two Years and Some Truth!!

WHAT!!?? Two years have seriously passed by in the blink. of. an. eye!!!! This will be a pretty deep, and truthful post so be prepared. :)

Today is two years exactly that we have lived here. I can still go back to that day like it was yesterday and feel all of the emotions I had that day and for those oh, 3+ months after moving here. I think I cried EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. for no LESS than 3 months. It was definitely an all time low for me. I was devastated, homesick, bitter, angry, sad, my emotions ran a whole array of adjectives.

Every day was a struggle for me to get out of bed, let alone get dressed. And how can anyone understand what I'm feeling when I'm closer to all my family and some of my friends who I haven't lived by since high school? No one could. Everyone would say they would, but no one knows what it is like to be gone for 18 years and be living a life somewhere that you were incredibly happy and then have it all ripped away. The harder part was I wasn't the only one feeling down and depressed, our daughter was struggling as well. I couldn't even help her because I was a sobbing mess myself. I felt sorry for her, for me, for us in general. Not only was I having a hard time being here but EVERYTHING in our "new" house was falling apart. It was one money pit issue after another.

This whole transition was bringing a HUGE strain on the family. So how did I go from all that to a "touch of positivity" today? It wasn't easy, I did go see a therapist to just help me sort out my feelings and just work on myself and then finally one day I thought to myself, 'Do you want to be this unhappy every single day?'   The answer was NO. Nothing was worth losing everything we worked so hard for. More importantly I had to pull myself together for my kids.

Slowly I started turning my attitude around and being happier and once I did that things started turning around for us. It's really amazing how your behavior really shapes everything in your life. Fast forward 2 years later and we have made some AH-MAZING memories here! I have gotten soooo close to my sister and niece, my kids see their grandparents so much now, I've reconnected with old friends & family, made some wonderful new friends and my photography has gotten busier.

So this year as the annual anniversary arrived instead of MOPING and CRYING I'm celebrating all that's been wonderful. Thank you to every single family member, friend (new and old) who has reached out to me these past 2 years. I truly appreciate it and thank you for loving me! I'm ready to make lots more memories! XO