Life Changes

Where to begin. I can put on a fake smile and pretend that I'm the happiest girl around, but every once in a while I need to be real and just say 'Guess what? Today is a hard day'. That's what today is. A month and half of living here and each day is an up or down roller coaster. On one hand I am seriously on a HIGH that I booked my FIRST wedding here for August of this year! So totally giggle happy (is that even a real emotion? probably not, but I'm going with it) I can hardly contain myself. Then on the other hand I'm so homesick for Arizona, my old life, my photography there, my FRIENDS, I can just literally, I KID. YOU. NOT. sit in my house and cry!!! Like a baby, that's right, for REAL tears!

Is life here horrible? NO!! Absolutely not, but starting over at (OMG...37...well technically 36 for at least 17 more days people!) is not EASY!! I am kind of jelly of my kids getting to go to school and just meeting a boatload of peeps!!! It takes everything in me not to jump on that bus and head to middle school to make some friends!!! ;)  I feel like the kid on the playground with no friends, and let me tell you, that is NOT a fun feeling. I want to hug a kid who is sitting there right now feeling like this. I guess the hardest part is realizing that life goes on for all your old friends. Even when you're sitting here crying, life is going on for them and I guess on a bad day you feel bitter and on a good day you will be happy for them. No worries, I'm sure tomorrow I will wake up and be totally cheery but for today I'm just going to be REAL, wallow in my own self pity and say this sucks!

To end this on a positive note....Spring has FINALLY sprung in our yard, well at least started to!!! Here's some proof!!! XO  (thanks for sticking with me on a not 'UP' day...)